What I’ve Learned from my Grandmother’s Dementia

Today is my grandmother’s 87th birthday. My mom and I went to visit her today with a bunch of gifts and flowers. At first she was a little confused, like always, but the day went very well. She opened the gifts and tried on all the clothes we gave her. I painted her nails with the new nail polish I got her and then ate some chocolates with her. I showed her my pictures from the holidays and we talked and took pictures of our own. It was a beautiful day. 

My grandmother has dementia.

She is so similar to me in a lot of ways. I inherited her small hands and love for romance. We both cry when we get emotional. We both love sugary foods. We’re both dreamers.

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Be Unapologetically Emotional

Honesty is the scariest thing I’ve ever known. By being vulnerable and honest with your emotions, you open yourself up to a world of hurt. Your honesty can be taken advantage of. It can become the reason people are apprehensive to spend time with you. And no, I’m not talking about “mean” honesty. Not “Sorry I’m just gonna be honest…there’s no way he’ll ever like you”, but instead emotional honesty like, “Oh I’m good…actually no. Honestly, I’m feeling really weak today and I need help”. While all types of honesty are important in this world, the kind I try to base my life on is emotional honesty. I don’t know what the scientific term is for this concept, but to me, emotional honesty is telling people about the emotions you are really feeling at any moment. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been honest with my emotions to a fault. When I was really young, I cried all the time if I was sad, and I carried that into teenage-hood too. People around me always try to put on a smile and a positive attitude. While that is healthy sometimes, honesty should prevail.

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